Thursday, October 25, 2007

The "he" in the "She"

There is this boy....Somehow, its always about a boy!!!

Anyway, lets start afresh..So there's this boy, we like each other and have been together for a while now!! We are committed, very much in love and happy around each other. So you might ask what in heaven's name is the problem, I am sure, like me, you too can rattle off the names of atleast 3698967 people who would kill to be in my place, off the top of your head ofcourse. So, the question being, what is the F&&*&%$@%@ problem woman??????

Well, its just this...He is a foreigner of sorts!!!

I can almost hear you scream as you read this and I can just about see you slapping your forehead, rolling your eyes in wonder and asking yourself if I belong to this century or not. Well...I do, but I am old school and I know my folks will hit the roof and I am rather fond of them too, so I have made my choice and I have chosen them over him!!!

Yes, you can now nail me to a cross and worship me henceforth!!

But thats that!! Now, making the decision was the easy bit, living by it is incredibly tough!! I am just understanding how tough it is, with each passing day and I haven't yet fully comprehended it in its entirety.

His infectious smile, the way he holds my hand when he drives, how he takes a deep breath whenever I am close by coz he loves my perfume, how he sometimes takes his eyes off the road completely, just to look at me and I act like I can't tell coz I am staring straight ahead all the while I am seeing him see my from the corner of my eye. The way he makes perfect sense and plays the role of a much needed anchor in my crazy life and crazier thoughts. How he wants me to meet everyone, including his family and respects me for my work. How he calls me once in a while to ask for some professional advice and respects my word. How he listens to me, makes me smile, cry, feel warm on the inside, content, serene, at peace. How he loves travelling as much as I do and is just as big a sports freak as me. How he knows so much about so many things that I would like to learn of, how he can give a discourse on anything under the sun and make so much sense. How he can faff his way through the stickiest situations and emerge unruffled. How he has no sense of dressing, rhythm, time, distance and sensing a woman' mood. He makes me happy.

I have spent 2 amazing years with him, but now........

As i walked away from him y'day I told him that the time to live by our decision was upon us.

1 comment:

Utopia said...

like foreigners too. sigh! life is a bloody paradox. wish sometimes just sometimes we could get exactly what we want the way we want. another lifetime maybe. i always tell that to myself :).